Recently I have been feeling a bit like I just want to fly away with some loud music and a tinny beat. Unfortunately, the reality of the situation is that I have to go to work every day, like the rest of the population, and just dream of sunbathing in warm temperatures with a glistening sea and a marvellous tan developing to make me look and feel much more healthy than reality.
At the weekend, once again I had blood and gunk coming out of my ear. I am not bothered by the ‘gunk’ and can even cope with the pain now – thanks, to a strong pain threshold – but its the bright red blood that is concerning me. Like most GP surgeries, trying to get an appointment is a nightmare these days. Once you get past the receptionist whom you have to get every last detail of your ‘concern’ to – they then say that a GP will call you back. Unfortunately, they can’t confirm the time that the GP can call you back and when you are a working person and you can’t take personal calls that makes it a little tricky to get an appointment. Despite asking for them to call back between 12 and 1 – they didn’t actually call back until around 3pm. The GP that called had a very strong European accent and constantly whispered. Needless to say even on loudspeaker next to my good ear I could not hear her properly. I could however tell that she didn’t want to see me.
I managed to get an appointment for later that afternoon/ early evening.
After getting there early, I still waited for over half an hour past my appointment time. Eventually, I got in there. The woman had not read my notes, and appeared to sigh as she mumbled about my going there too often about ear infections to get just antibiotics. Before even looking in my ears, she said that she did not want to give me any more antibiotic drops. I tried to explain that I didn’t actually think that I had an infection as there was no temperature or pain. It was the fact that it was red blood that was being discharged that was my concern. She looked and surprise! – there was no infection.
When I asked if she could speak to the hospital to bring my next appointment forward she said that it wasn’t her job to do that, she was too busy. It was down to me. She then sent me away for a blood test to see if I had an infection in my blood or diabetes! I have no symptoms for either, other than telling her that I was becoming extremely tired from concentrating and lip reading since losing my hearing in my right ear – and asking if there was any chance I could have an appointment to see if I could have a hearing aid for my ‘good’ ear. Obviously, that doesn’t come under her remit either.
I went for the blood test today – let’s see what the results are…
I also called my new Consultant’s secretary, they still have not received the operation notes, biopsy results or any communication from the original trust. It has been over a month since they requested them directly and 12 weeks since requested them. I am expecting them this week – but not holding my breath. The reason my appointment to see my new Consultant is not until February, is because that is when they suspect they will finally get the information that they need. This will be 2 years since my first appointment! Who on earth calls these people to account?
Incompetence and negligence are two words that I never thought I would say about the NHS but they seem to be regularly bounced around now. I would also say that none of the contacts I have had, either at the original hospital trust or my GP surgery have been English trained. Most have been European and locums.
Well, Friday seems to be the day of reckoning – for results and hopefully, the opportunity to understand what has happened to me and why. Let’s hope at last someone will be held accountable and explain. An apology would be nice.
Meantime, look forward to flying along on the icy streets tomorrow.